Balik bp

Last Friday kami blk bp celebrate my mil belated birthday yg ke 66
Fyi
On 14 apr is my sil's mil birthday
On 15 apr is my mom 65 yrs birthday
On 16 apr is my mil 66 yrs birthday
Hehe how nice if they can celebrate together

I make kek gula hangus versi kukus kurang manis dan carrot cheese cupcakes for her and she liked those.  Not like my mom, if I give her cake m she just keep in the fridge till my next visit (sebulan! ) huhuhu but my mil, she like to eat my cake especially my tiramisu cakev (yes she asking again for that cake); and she will share those with her friends.
Sebab tu I rajin bake for her.

Recently she said I m look skinny,  sebab I breastfeed,  and hubby pulak ckp dia br perasan yg I kurus tp perut muncit hahaha
Sbb mil ckp I kurus, so he allowed me to eat more :p
He said sbb I breastfeed yg kurus kalau d ikutkan I mkn more than him hahaha
Yg nk ckp how my mil syg I, when ww pass by kios jual durian puff, hubby jeling2 kt I, I walk behind him and I said "what??? I didn't say anything" then he said "I know u want that , hahahaa"
Sbb Selalu nya mmg x missed beli durian puff kt situ, tp sbb I dh kenyang I x minta la
U know what, my mil belikn 1 box for me and she have to wait very long sbb ade 1 lady buy few boxes of durian puff. As far I know my mil sama mcm my hubby, x suka long queue or waiting,  but she did it for me. Huhuhuv*touching

Nak luahkan kt sini, I really feel love and appreciate from my hubby side, my mom recently being very calculative with me and said she won't cook for me when I blk. I terasa yg I sgt menyusahkan dia, rasa mcm tanak blk kg dah, dah la blk kg sekejap, dan bkn Selalu blh dia ckp mcm tu, katanya dia dh x larat nk msk,  I understand la, just ckp la, I blh mkn luar sblm blk, sbb sabtu Selalu nya I blk after my son piano class, sampai dh jam 7pm, takkan I nak masak that hours, so kalau dia masak I tumpang mkn, kalau x msk bgtau la so I blh blk lewat mkn di luar kt karak ke kan. Ni dia pesan dgn kakak pun pesan, katanya kalau org dtg rmh aku, aku suh msk sendiri, dh bosan mkn masakan sendiri.  Ok I faham tp I bukan duduk berlama2 di rumah. Ahad pg lps sarapan I dh blk I tak mintak pun mak msk sarapan tp dia nk msk nasi lemak kami makan. Hari tu masa d hospital masa mak sakit, I bawa buah tgn mcm2 dia ckp lg benda yg sama, katanya dh bincang adik beradik, siapa blk kg, masak sendiri, I angguk aje sbb dia dh ckp sblm ni, lg pun I mmg x mo menyusahkan dia.
I x msk d rumah mak sbb i tau my taste x sama dgn diorg, diorg nk nasi, nk pedas, I ni msk plain sbb nk anak blh mkn. Kalau mak msk I top up sayuran anak sbb mak masak pedas anak x mkn, yg lain masin ke oily ke kami makan, hormat tuan rmh.
Tapiiii masa her birthday and I yakin I sorang yg ingat and 1st yg wish her birthday,  dia tgh sibuk masak, mak tgh goreng ayamm kejap lg ujang nak blk, nk makan (my brother nak blk)
I terus jd terkecik hati ganda 2) walhal dia br keluar hospital,  br je ckp berkalu2 dgn I siapa blk masak sendiri, but now dia sibuk2 msk for my brother yg blk jenguk not even bermlm with his wife.
I inform my hubby sambil rasa sedih sgt.
2 x I bersalin mak dtg jaga u think for free? I give her rm800 utk jaga yg 1st she stay for 28days, yg 2nd 2 minggu saja, but i still pay full, mak yg volunteer nak jaga, lepas tu dia berbunyi jugak br ni
Mak ckp siapa yg nk bersalin berpantang blk kg, mak dh xnak dtg tgu rumah dah.
I diam aje
Sbb kalau I ckp, actually my mil willing to take care of me , even bila hubby outstation mil datang 2 minggu ddk rumah teman kami, I feel really touching tau, walhal she s working, amik cuti just nk teman kami. Ni katanya kalau hubby kene ke taiwan 1 bln, biar dia jaga, takde pun dia suh kami blk ke or lantak la korang anak beranak kt sana xde laki.

Sbb tu I lebih suka blk my in law side, she treat me mcm anak sendiri and lebih dr mak I treat me mcm org asing . I prefer just call tanya kabar, kalau kepulangan I menyusahkan, baik la I x balik.
Jgn salah anggap ai anak derhaka, nope, I being silent of my feelings just to let her happy.  I balik I still menghulur, she admitted I hulur, I tak pernah meminta duit dia walaupun actually she own me when she renovated the house tp bila hubby minta ikan dr kolah utk d bawa ke kajang,  she ask my brother,  how much to sell to us? My brother actually dh ckp, amik saje la, I x pernah being too calculative with him, bila adik x cukup duit nk pinjam duit I bg je x minta pun blk, even dh dt gaji nk belanja anak2 pun xde, tiap2 minggu pinjam kereta nk blk kg, I x berkira, tp bila my mom nk jual ikan kaloi dr kolah air tu, hubby kecik hati, terus dia x mo ambil, sedangkn mmg niat nk bg adik rm50 tp x perlu la bt statement "berapa nk jual" dgn anak sendiri.
Huhuhu

I know I shdnt too close with in law family bcoz they r non muslim, but they appreciate me more than my own family,  what I want to ask more?  I m bless have a family who love me. Bila I often blk johor mak mcm cemburu,  sbb tu now bila blk johor I diam2, sbb I blk johor more often dr blk phg huhu.

Maaf sekali lg kalau ada yg kata saya berdosa kerana berkecil hati dgn ibu sendiri. Tp saya punta hati dan perasaan.  Saya rasa saya mak berat sebelah,  anak yg syg mak, mak ambil kesempatan dan x peduli, anak yg Selalu meminta2 itu yg mak tatang, tatang la mereka dan usah di kenang aku di sini T_T